Well...Here We Are.

So, here we are.

October.

My last post was in February, an optimistic and hopeful outlook on all the possibilities and goals I wanted to achieve this year. I still hold hope on achieving those goals. But when?

Who in the hell knows, let’s be honest.

I’ve had a journey this year as an artist, with months of not being able to photograph anyone forcing me to look inwardly and think about who I am as an artist. Why am I not photographing the subject matter that makes me happiest? Why not seek out and try to create more artistic images? If not now, when?

My professional career started with my foray into glamour photography; I wanted to help women feel pampered, gorgeous and I loved the style of photography I was learning. But in doing so, I split myself in two artistically; I felt the creative side of myself was incompatible with the glamour photography side.
I kept my creative work, which was often darker and more strange, private. I didn’t want to confuse potential clients, but in doing so I denied the truth at the heart of who I am as a photographer.

I was forcing myself to photograph in a style that didn’t ring true to me. To top it off, I wasn’t seeing new clients surging in, so clearly the lack of passion was evident to more people than just myself.

So I said to myself, enough’s enough. I started moving away from my little studio, and going back on location. I allowed myself room to dream, to imagine, to create what I wanted again. I found amazing creative people to collaborate with; I went to the mountains, walked through meadows, finding little places filled with magic.

And I was happy with what I was creating, once again. And then 2020 hit. The introspection, the depression, the self doubt…All those surfaced again. But I kept dreaming. And when I could pick up my camera again, I photographed exactly as I wanted to again. I pushed myself to embrace the style, the ethereal softness, the eerie romance. I am finally on the right path for my art again.

I’m excited to be on this new trajectory for my art. I’m so thrilled to share it with all of you. I’m looking into new ways to present what I create, from virtual gallery showings, to limited release prints. I want my photos to be seen in all their beauty, instead of only existing on a small part of your screen.

So with all things…to be continued.